Why I can't write / talk / take initiative or do anything properly

Till sometime ago, words would flow out like I had verbal diarrohea or something. Even when I used to talk to people, I was always this friendly girl who talked nineteen to the dozen. If we had to go out, I would make plans, call people, and make sure we all went out and had a good time. Now, frankly, I am like this lazy good-for-nothing thing who just wants to sit back and watch. Mid-life crisis? I don't know. In fact, it's so bad that I don't even feel like completing this damn introspective blog anymore...